Pain says “fix me now”, especially the younger you are. Or it says, "something’s right, keep going."
"I just give my pain to God" isn’t a good answer. When you don’t acknowledge pain, you forget why you are the way you are. When we don’t see what’s inside us, it begins to form us, the way we think, what we do.
People can shut off their emotions for good to shut out pain. But, Matthew 5:4 - Blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted and Psalm 126:5 - Those who sow in tears will reap in joy. When you don’t deal with your stuff and your pain, you pass it on to the next generation and you start a cycle of poverty.
How do you know how much to process? If you’ve already dealt with it, don’t dig it up. You’re not allowed to dig up a dead man. Don’t go around looking for bad stuff.
Sometimes we grow closer to God through "violence" (Matthew 11:12), other times by being a child (Mark 10:15).
There are times when you need to take breakthrough by force. Violence in the Kingdom is faith. When someone puts faith in Christ it is trauma to the kingdom of darkness. Violence can look like prayer walks or fasting -- putting aside all sense of decorum and crying out to God.
Then sometimes you realize you’re not going to get breakthrough through fighting. Some things aren’t trusted to soldiers, only to sons. Sometimes there's too much of a chance that you’ll take credit for the breakthrough. When receiving as a child you need to trust.
“Ask me and I will give you the nations as your inheritance.” We don’t fight for inheritance
When the Lord stirs up a violent thing, that passion for breakthrough, he’s trying to teach you about authority. But sometimes He says just stand by. He wants you to use your identity, not your authority.
People who know their identity don’t have to fight for who they are. It can seem so wrong not to fast and pray but sometimes a season of less activity, and more trust in Him, will lead to your biggest breakthrough.
More Bill Johnson
Don’t settle for a baptism of fire that fits your doctrinal qualifications. Only be satisfied by unstoppable, unquenchable fire that you don’t define, but that defines you.
God wants us to encounter His presence so we can become an encounter. I don’t go to an outreach, I AM the outreach. Because I’ve been seeking more of Him so that I leak out His presence on other people. He is Christ in us, the hope of glory.